An Experience for Me

In the fall of 2023 my first television show—a loose adaptation of my first novel, itself already a loose adaptation of a period of my life marked by familial strife, internet addiction, exploitative jobs, deep love of a violent animal and intellectual torpor—entered that bone-chilling process known as development. For years I’d felt a numb non-control over my life story; now, I was its executive producer (or one of them, at least): I had a contract that said so.